Simultaneously, I yearn for a clean, fresh, quiet (yeah, right, who am I kidding?) house and the ability to leave for extended periods, but know I will miss them terribly.
At this very moment they are all asleep just a few feet from me and I hear at least two snoring away. They are so content. I wonder about the adjustment that they will be making. I know that they say that a dog's memory is very short term, but I can't help wondering, will they miss their siblings? their mother? my children? me?
I do know that some of the pups will be in for a drastic change in environment. My house is chaotic on the best of days, with the addition of these pups, it has been totally insane. I wonder about pups going to a quiet or "empty nest" type house, will they know what to do with themselves in the quiet?
Letting go is definitely going to be the hardest part, not because I wish I could keep them, (although there are a couple that I would like to keep) more because I will no longer be in control and I will not know how they are doing every minute of every day. I will not be able to snuggle them and smell their puppy breath whenever I want to. I am relieved knowing these pups are going to loving homes, going to be showered with attention every where they go, and will change lives some day. I am proud that we have played a part, but I am a bit nervous for them, I am sad to let them go, and I hope I will hear updates or run into a pup now and then (HINT, HINT).